Growing up in Berlin and Belgium with three siblings I suffered from my youth on from severe depressions. In my early twenties after my brother’s suicide I quit my university studies and started traveling form 2005 to 2011 in New Zealand, the South Pacific, Australia, Southeast Asia, India, the Middle East, Central and South America, Hawaii, the Canary Islands and in the Caribbean. Although making valuable life experiences, radically changing my way of life and also having happy periods my feeling of alienation grew stronger. I failed settling down in the tropics outside the system as well as in social relationships. My loneliness and latent death wish in combination with an extreme diet somehow caused loss of appetite which made me lose weight and develop health issues, I was forced to move back to my parents. Not finding any organic causes I got stigmatizing diagnoses, that turned me into a social outcast shunned by relatives and friends, for years I lived in total isolation, involuntarily starving nobody understanding my body wouldn’t let me force food upon it. It were years of total desperation and feeling of hopelessness. Finally I ended up in the psychiatry which was worse than hell, a complete lack of empathy.

At last I was given up for death. Like a miracle I survived and managed to recover. Now I’ve taking on fighting evil powers that rule the world, like the psychiatry, the medical industry complex and the state, that is denying me justice.

I had revelations and transformative experiences that gave me certainty about the meaning of life, freed me of fears, helped me cope with my trauma and social stigmas, I’ve grown very strong and resilient and determined to fight against the system no matter what they will do to me.


In case of a victory in court I plan on leaving Germany for good and settling down in the tropics. 

Tag 17: Die Charité hatte an meinen beiden Bannern nichts auszusetzen gehabt, aber die Polizei war heute der Meinung, dass der 2. Banner mit Fotos und Namen üble Nachrede wäre, und beschlagnahmte ihn. Strafanzeige wegen Verleumdung. 






Ich soll daran glauben, dass mich für die unzähligen Strafanzeigen eine deftige Strafe erwartet.

Force-feeding of rational prisoners has been a source of controversy for over a century. And recently, it has been a source of widespread condemnation by medical and human rights associations. Physicians for Human Rights and the American Medical Association both declared that, “forcible feeding is never ethically acceptable.The World Medical Association released guidelines “concerning torture and other cruel, inhuman, and degrading treatment,” which specifically address force-feeding — and these guidelines were endorsed by the Red Cross.

Holger Meins von der RAF verhungerte TROTZ ZWANGSERNÄHRUNG. Auch hier registrierte der Arzt, dass die künstliche Ernährung nicht funktionierte.

Als er [Holger Meins] am 9. November 1974, von seinem Anwalt in der Justizvollzugsanstalt Wittlich besucht wurde, wog er bei einer Größe von 1,83 Metern nur noch 39 kg.

Er war während seines 58 Tage andauernden Hungerstreiks künstlich ernährt worden, der Gefängnisarzt hatte in den letzten zwei Wochen jedoch täglich nur 400 bis 800, in den letzten vier Tagen nur 400 kcal verabreichen lassen. 

Das Gefühl, aus dem eigenen Körper entfliehen zu wollen, kenne ich.

Man will mir glauben machen, mein Passwort wäre gehackt worden.